I WAS LOSING MY COOL too soon and I lashed my anger toward Baby V. It was UGLY. I feel ashamed, sad, and frustrated in those moments. While he was just acting himself – a toddler. I knew he needed me but I reacted otherwise.
This is probably my fifth attempt at writing this post because I was not ready to pen it all down. I wasted my time scrolling through Instagram rather than writing. I WAS ESCAPING from those emotions and reactions.
But thankfully the realization dawned soon that I NEED TO CHANGE MY THOUGHTS and not expect Baby V to behave as I wanted him to. I mentioned in the last post about going through some distress and it’s like a parasite feeding on me, making me weaker and getting stronger.
I am feeling insecure. I am scared. I feel WEAK (emotionally, mentally). I am feeling all those negative ones and I am fighting hard against them. I don’t know when it will end or will I ever win the fight?
This post is going to be short. Ending it here and see you soon with refreshed emotion and tone. Leaving you with the song I’m listening to.